Realization
Well I've had a thoughtful time in Sedona, Arizona. Lots of things came to my mind. I think the biggest was how terrible I am at being exclusive. I've realized how over the past while I've blocked out a lot of people that I actually care deeply about. I've realized how many friends I've lost over the past few years, that have now become "acquaintances." I'm very sorry to anyone that may feel I excluded them and made them feel alienated. I feel very bad for that. Hopefully I will change, but have you ever realized how hard that actually is? I find it scary to let people into my messed up world. But that was my biggest thought over the past week.On another note:Pre-carmel party tonight, I'm terrified!!! I'm not very good at conversation, so meeting new people is difficult. Hopefully I'll do well.
some thoughts...perhaps out of the blue.
peace
posted by Steph @ 2:20 PM
3 Comments:
steph,
i like you. you are thinking about some tough stuff and i'm glad that you are willing to admit stuff. be well.
Hey there couz!
I am glad you are home! It means we can have our lovely little dates some more! So very cool that you are in school! I would like to know all about it. Have fun and learn lots! Love you
i know what you mean about it being hard to change. Sometimes I wonder why I even bother trying... blah! but I guess it's worth the try and the hope and the faith.
but hard.
bisous!
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