searching
Well I'm back, who knows for how long, and who knows for what purpose. I think it's mostly to just get my ideas out and maybe hear feedback or maybe not, as long as I get them out somehow. I just got back from high Level with school and it was good. A bit challenging at time, but that's what they want right? So in that perspective it was good, perhaps a bit too long for me.It's my birthday this week and I'm turning 21, it's weird to think how I'm already a year into my 20s. When I was younger I thought I'd be married by now and working, never thought my life would turn out as it is. No marriage in sight, going to bible school again, have traveled a fair amount and have no idea of what to do with my life. That's the biggest thing that's on my mind lately, what should I do with my life? I feel like there's something big out there for me, I just don't know what it is!!!
I'm looking into schools AGAIN, it's the second time I've looked into them, and the second time I've been accepted to one. I've been accepted to GMac for this fall term in a therapist assistance program, 2 years and a pretty sweet job when I get out. Yet I've realized that I always come back to the fact that I don't want to do something boring with my life, I want to do something fun and exciting, but I'm not sure if that's wise. I know I need to enter schooling that's going to give me a job and will provide finances to survive and so forth, but does it have to be boring? I think I want to go to Design school, but that means I have to take another year off and work on my sewing skills and save enough to go. (It's really expensive to go.) Then I would have to tell pepole I'm not going to school for ANOTHER year, which makes me sound ridiculous because I've done it so often! But it also means I'd probably move away and that'd be rough because I love edmonton, but don't seem much here...i also worry about leaving and missing out on something. I don't know...lots of thoughts about that and I have no idea what to do!!! I wish I could make a decision stick with it and feel good about it.
But those are my crazy thoughts for now, some other ones, but they're not important to share. I hope you all have a fantastic week, I get to have monday and tuesday off...so I get to read a lot.
peace out
posted by Steph @ 10:51 PM
3 Comments:
I wouldn't worry about sounding silly when you say you're going to take another year off of school to work and save up. Look at all the things you've done since you graduated... New Zealand, Europe (it'll be two times in a few months), road trip to Arizona and Bible School in several different places, plus anything else I don't know about. Sounds like therapist assistance could be a good job to me. Anyways, enjoy your days off.
For what it's worth, I think you should do what you want to do, not what you think other people expect you to do. Nowhere is it written that we must be at a certain point in our lives at a certain age, so unless or until you have a burning desire to get married and start a family, you can do just about anything you want.
Hey Couz!!
I am excited that you made a post. I agree.. You and I need to get together... And soon! I feel very similar to you a lot. So we should hang out and bounce these thoughts around. You have done way more than me which makes me jealous! You keep doing what you want and enjoy this time of not being married. Live your singleness well (someone once told me that). I love you.
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